Friday July 1, 2005
"There's my love!!!" are going to be my first words to my son. I have yet to see him. This has been the hardest thing I have ever experience in my life. And waiting for 5 or 6 more hours is killing me. The suspence, the longing, being able to see him. I can't hold him yet... he's too fragile.
He's hooked up to 5 moniters and is on a respirator.
I've been in the hosptial a week and a day now. I don't like being on diluaded. Speaking of which... I can hit the button and it's the only time I am going to have this in my veins like this. I hate the way it makes me think. How it makes me feel...
I can't get over how different I look now. In my face...
