Tuesday June 3, 2003
I
am doing the things I love the most. Eating peroshki and
chicken, smoking a bowl, watching the Simpsons and basically
feeling like I am a new woman. I have decided to change my
life.
This
episode is particularily funny because it's the episode where
they are sending out peyote.
I
have been making brownies and butter like crazy. I added
double the amount of butter and made these thick juicy pot
burning liquidiy fudgy mounds of goo effervacing of THC.
I
wish I could be more consistant with what is going on but
I don't have a lot of personal energy at this time. I am
working like a fiend and I am making some decent money. Today
was a particular kind of hell day as Rhonda and Tracy were
both out so I couldn't make any sales today.
My
arms burn from the vanco.
The
continuation of the love/hate relationship rolls along. Things
have to be a certain way or I am not satisfied. My belly
is full and I look pregnent. I wish I could have a baby.
I am hoping that once I have a baby when I am thinking more
clear once again then it will suck the fat right out of my
belly.
I
got to hold a baby today, Luka. Alex just had him. He was
so happy and carefree. I loved to hold him in my arms because
I could tell how much time Alex spends with him and how warm
and open he was to being held by me. When they are little
like that and they let you hold them it's priceless.
I
wonder how Colin is doing.
I
want a baby. We have the possiblity of working together which
would be nice. I like it when we can do jobs together so
I don't have it so hard on me with driving. I really detest
wasting my energy with driving. It hurts my hands and it's
bad enough just typing. I was so stupid. I think back to
how long it took them to get me to use the pic line I was
so dumb. I didn't know it was going to help me get so much
better so much faster. And stupid me is just working on this
goofy effagee of me and photos of me that I need to finish
for catherineclay.com... I think I will do it now.
